InuYasha was my childhood. The end.

I remember looking forward to watching it with my friends every Friday on YTV. It was like the epic highlight of my week every week. As lame as it sounds, my friends and I always role-played it. I felt so badass watching an anime with “swear” words in it ahaha.

InuYasha didn’t really change my life in any major ways, but it was the first time that I became overly obsessed with an anime…I mean, come on, role-playing it with my friends? Haha. The show also opened the door for me to Asian music like jpop and kpop.

OMG. LOLOL. Good times.

I sound like such a geek talking about anime…but that’s ok :)

AND I USED TO HAVE A CRUSH ON SESSHOUMARU. HE IS SO COOL C’: INUYASHA IS FOREVER COOL. 

THIS IS SO SIMPLE.

I would like myself to stop procrastinating and stop being such a lazy-ass motherfucker so I can actually get stuff done. Also, I would like to stop being so easily distracted by random things when working so all the information I’m learning is actually going into my head.

The bottom line is, I need to change myself so I can actually survive this hectic year of grade.11 with a decent IB/Alberta diploma mark for math and physics.

I know I always talk about how I need good grades and stuff, but I’m always either procrastinating, being lazy, or being distracted when working so I don’t really achieve anything. It sucks ass. Like my mom said, it may look like I’ve been sitting in that chair for two hours doing homework, but in reality, only about 30 minutes is spent on doing the actual work and the rest is spent daydreaming, being distracted by objects around me, and thinking about irrelevant things…or in today’s case, playing Tiny Tower -__-

This is so random, but sometimes, when I don’t do enough work, I actually feel mentally frustrated or deprived or something, because my brain wasn’t used enough…hahaha. That was lame. But anyways, that’s how I feel like right now during break…got nothing done ;__; 

Also, I don’t know if it’s obvious, I don’t think it is, but I need to become less sensitive and care less about what other people think and say about me, because in the end of the day, I am just putting boundaries around myself from being my full potential because of some irrelevant comments made by some asshole.

Ok, so, my kind of utopia would be:

• Even distribution of wealth, therefore cutting all hunger, poverty, etc (Omg…why does it sound like a communist state LOL)
• Less major crimes like terrorism, murder, etc. Obviously world peace isn’t ever going to be possible, but a decrease in those criminal activities would be great
• Have more people care about the environment: some urban areas are really trashed and disgusting…not only is it bad for the environment, it is also bad for humans, since humans are living in an unhealthy environment.
• I also hope people would become, for a lack of better words, nicer? Kinder? More considerate? Caring? Less greedy? Sexier? Jokings. Yeah.

If all this can be achieved, then I’m sure the general human lifespan would increase exponentially too since everyone’s happiness level and health situation will get better :3

My dream is to marry Myungsoo, but that is obviously a joke and so not realistic.

;____;

But anyways, one of my reasonable goals is to get good grades, do well in IB, get good on my diplomas, and find a major that I can bare, or at least have some interest in, in university. After, I want to do well in university since that promises a good job with a job pay.

If I achieve that dream, and of course I am going to try my best to do so, I believe that I will somewhat become a happier person than I am now. As cheesy as it sounds, if I achieve my dream, I’d know that all my hard work, sleepless nights, and pain in IB are worth it. I would feel happy that I can get a decent job so I can support myself and buy the stuff I want and at the same time give back to my parents for what they’ve done for me for all these years.

The bottom line is that my dream promises stability.

I think I’m here just like why everyone else is here: the parents had sex,

Jokings.

But yeah, I’m not the type of person to think people actually have a purpose to be here. Ok…that sounded a little harsh. Everyone has their own purposes and such, but when I look at the general picture, we’re all just…here…trying to live, trying to make a living, trying to enjoy life.

We don’t need a reason, but we’re just here… doing our own thing, including me.

1. Abortion: I don’t know if abortions are illegal but I’m just going to put it out there that I’m a pro-choice person. Technically it’s a woman’s right to choose: it’s her body, her “territory” and I believe she gets to decide whatever she wants to do with the baby…I mean, a woman always has her reasons if she wants to get an abortion, no sane person would just randomly kill a child without having serious thoughts behind it.

2. Same Sex Marriage: Pretty straightforward. I mean, why can’t men be with men and women be with women? It doesn’t really affect anyone and it’s just between the two lovers. Gays and lesbians are also people who should be with the one they love.

LOL. I can’t think of anymore at the moment and I feel lazy today so adieus.

Fuck, I have to go do calculus now.

Hopes:

Well, this is pretty straightforward, I hope that I will do decent enough for my physics20/30IB course so it’s not necessary to take the physics30 course during the summer to replace the IB mark. This will be really difficult because I have the shittiest teacher for physicsIB and it is quite obvious she doesn’t like me, and because of other factors too, I’m not doing that well. But I have the strength to work hard because I have a spare next semester so I’ll have more time to do homework, review, take notes and stuff. However, if I do not do well in the course, I still hope that I’ll have above 70% so it doesn’t seem like I completely failed the course. I care a lot about my academic reputation as it seems, so it pains me that year after year, my standards have gone down…I used to aim for above 90% on everything…Look at where I am now. I hope to change that in 2012 and go back on the 90+ path. There are many challenges ahead, like the physicsIB conceptual diploma without a calculator and the phyiscsIB multiple choice diploma with a calculator and the Alberta physics diploma. I am fucking stressed. I really hope everything will turn out alright and that during the summer, I can look back at all this and feel proud so then I’ll feel confident enough to take down the fucking inconsiderate bitchy staff at SWC high school and throw them in front of a bus so they can fucking burn in fucking hell.

Dreams:

I dream of the summer holidays. The end. To be honest, I don’t get the difference between ‘hopes’ and ‘dreams’, but here goes. Yeah, other than these nerdy dreams of getting good marks, I hope that I can improve my drawing style and learn more about perspective and the human anatomy so I can be more versatile to put my dreams and imaginations on paper for everyone to see.

Plans:

My plan is kind of like my new year resolution? I’ve decided this year is going to be completely academic focused…so I’m going to try to work my hardest on improving my marks. And screw what fucking SWC high school said: “Compassion gets you through your life, not marks” Here comes another rant:

Well, obviously, *Principal, you don’t know very much about the world today. Compassion won’t get you into Harvard or the Ivy League, marks do. Without good marks, how can you hope to get into university? Marks is everything, you dumbass. Also, who has compassion anymore? Even you’re not compassionate so go fuck yourself.

Ok, I’m going to stop and go on with my plans for 2012. So, other than trying to do well in school, I’m going to try to get my drivers licence this summer so I can stop bothering my parents about giving me rides here and there. Also, it would mean more freedom :) I would also like to go back to my dance class not only because I want to lose weight but also because dance has been with me since I was very small so it makes me feel all happy and high when I dance…LOL. Yeah, another plan: TO LOSE THOSE IB INDUCED FATS DURING THE SUMMER. Fucking IB makes me sit here, eat, cry, do homework therefore no time for exercise.

I’m tired. I am going to stop everything here.

Omg. That was long.

And uhm….I haven’t really taken any pictures lately, but here is a semi-decent picture of my friend and I on Christmas. I am on the right.

*Shit happened at my school so I’m scared to reveal staff names on the internet now

So, I guess I’ll just do whatever for the 366 Days Project.

Even if it’s a Leap Year.

Guess I will start tomorrow :)